People say they felt something similar to an electrical spark the first time they met their partners. Others swore they heard the birds chirping and some would even attest that there were an indescribable lightness within their beings.
OOOOKKKKKAAAAAYYYYY......
Now, how does one feel when he/she falls out of love?
Instead of excitement, would you feel bored out of your mind at the company of your partner?
Instead of birds chirping, could you be hearing witches cackling endlessly?
Instead of feeling weightless, maybe, you'll feel the burden of having to put up with the mere presence of someone who means absolutely nothing you?
I HAVE NO IDEA. I'M CLUELESS. But, maybe, I'm lucky after all.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Sunday, August 28, 2005
muddled thoughts#10
Beyond my facade of stoicism, cynicism and skepticism (and all the possible isms! Hehehehe), I am actually a hopeless and incurable romantic. I absolutely crazy about happy endings and fervently wish for all those people who have found their better halves to live happily ever after.
But, as the saying goes, some good things never last…..
One thing I really try to avoid hearing is the news of breaking up and separating. I have no idea how to react or what words of comfort should I say. Is there an appropriate advice to this? How could I possibly relate to them? Can I fit in to their shoes? I really hate this feeling of helplessness! More than that, I can’t stand the feeling of cluelessness!
Another one bites the dust! Another couple just announced their separation and I just couldn’t find the right words to say. For the life of me, I just couldn’t figure out why. The last time I was with them, they were all sweetness and I’m not exaggerating. So, it’s just doesn’t connect. Maybe, it’s a recent thing. Or maybe, it’s a slowly brewing thing that just blew up. Whatever the reason is, I just hope that they do know what they’re doing.
But, as the saying goes, some good things never last…..
One thing I really try to avoid hearing is the news of breaking up and separating. I have no idea how to react or what words of comfort should I say. Is there an appropriate advice to this? How could I possibly relate to them? Can I fit in to their shoes? I really hate this feeling of helplessness! More than that, I can’t stand the feeling of cluelessness!
Another one bites the dust! Another couple just announced their separation and I just couldn’t find the right words to say. For the life of me, I just couldn’t figure out why. The last time I was with them, they were all sweetness and I’m not exaggerating. So, it’s just doesn’t connect. Maybe, it’s a recent thing. Or maybe, it’s a slowly brewing thing that just blew up. Whatever the reason is, I just hope that they do know what they’re doing.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
This Is IT!!!!
Ok! This is it!!!! I've made my decision and if nothing goes awry (as in walang masamang elemento na kokontra!!!! hehehehe), i will be starting a new phase in my life or should i say re-start that phase in my life.
Friday, August 26, 2005
maybe
i need to spread my wings
i must learn how to fly
i'm not getting any younger
i can't just let life pass me by
time went and left me behind
i lost so much without asking why
i thought i could handle life
but now all i want to do is cry
maybe it's not too late to start over
maybe i can still dream and try
maybe there's still something for me
maybe i can still wipe my tears dry
i must learn how to fly
i'm not getting any younger
i can't just let life pass me by
time went and left me behind
i lost so much without asking why
i thought i could handle life
but now all i want to do is cry
maybe it's not too late to start over
maybe i can still dream and try
maybe there's still something for me
maybe i can still wipe my tears dry
Thursday, August 25, 2005
muddled thoughts #09
I never wanted to be in this situation. I'm not good at this. I tend to literally grasp the first thing I can hold on and rue my action later.
Decision-making has been one of my stronger points. I usually let my heart rule my head which, of course, more often than not result to dire consequences I can't possibly imagine.
Tomorrow is THE day. I have to make THAT decision. In as much as I want to avoid it, I must. A sign of independence? Partly, I guess. A sigh of rebellion? Probably.
Anyway, whatever is the motivation I might have, I REALLY hope and pray that it would be a step to a better and brighter future for me.
Decision-making has been one of my stronger points. I usually let my heart rule my head which, of course, more often than not result to dire consequences I can't possibly imagine.
Tomorrow is THE day. I have to make THAT decision. In as much as I want to avoid it, I must. A sign of independence? Partly, I guess. A sigh of rebellion? Probably.
Anyway, whatever is the motivation I might have, I REALLY hope and pray that it would be a step to a better and brighter future for me.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
muddled thoughts#08
I now find myself standing again in yet another crossroad. Should I turn left or right? Should I dare go forward or backward? Should I just stay put? For a person whose deepest fear is change, deciding which direction to take is giving me migraine, sleepless nights, and dyspepsia!!!!!
I am now at the point in my life where I want to take charge. No more charging to experience nor mere acceptance of what life hands over to me. I want to become the best person I can possibly and want to be.
But, still, I am hindered with a lot of obstacles that I can't seem to avoid. Should I just throw caution to the wind? Should I just turn a blind eye? Should I just concentrate on myself?
I have until Thursday to make my decision. This is not going to be easy. Hopefully, I can make the right decision and will be able to face the consequences that go with it.
I am now at the point in my life where I want to take charge. No more charging to experience nor mere acceptance of what life hands over to me. I want to become the best person I can possibly and want to be.
But, still, I am hindered with a lot of obstacles that I can't seem to avoid. Should I just throw caution to the wind? Should I just turn a blind eye? Should I just concentrate on myself?
I have until Thursday to make my decision. This is not going to be easy. Hopefully, I can make the right decision and will be able to face the consequences that go with it.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
muffled thoughts #11
I can no longer recall how many times I had watched Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory as a kid (oh yeah, it's been ages already! hehehe) nor I can even remember the scenes accurately. But, it was a delicious treat for me then to watch Gene Wilder play the Candyman and regale Charlie with the great things one can achieve using just pure imagination.
Guess, it goes without saying the childlike thrill I got when I read that Tim Burton was going to recreate this Roald Dahl classic into a movie. Plus, Johnny Depp is going to be Willy Wonka!
Even though the urge to watch the first version is almost irressistible, still, I was able to control the urge. And it's a also a good thing t hat the book was unbelievably priced. Thus, I was able to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with, hopefully, an untainted mind.
Although it is based on a children's book, the movie appealed more to the adult intentionally hiding within my person than the child I'm trying to repress (hehehehe). I left the move house actually in a pensive mood. There's more to the chocolate in this movie than one expected it to be.
Maybe I'm biased (me being a Johnny Depp fan since 21 Jumpstreet and all), but this is a film directed by Tim Burton. There's no way that this movie would be all cheery and fun. It's dark in a lot of ways and you need to carefully read between the lines. Until now, I'm still at a loss whether everything was pure coincidental or was geniously planned to find Willy Wonka's rightful heir.
Lastly, I vehemently disagree with the idea that Johnny Depp patterned his Willy Wonka to Michael Jackson. Duh!?! Just because of their skin color? WHATEVER....
Guess, it goes without saying the childlike thrill I got when I read that Tim Burton was going to recreate this Roald Dahl classic into a movie. Plus, Johnny Depp is going to be Willy Wonka!
Even though the urge to watch the first version is almost irressistible, still, I was able to control the urge. And it's a also a good thing t hat the book was unbelievably priced. Thus, I was able to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with, hopefully, an untainted mind.
Although it is based on a children's book, the movie appealed more to the adult intentionally hiding within my person than the child I'm trying to repress (hehehehe). I left the move house actually in a pensive mood. There's more to the chocolate in this movie than one expected it to be.
Maybe I'm biased (me being a Johnny Depp fan since 21 Jumpstreet and all), but this is a film directed by Tim Burton. There's no way that this movie would be all cheery and fun. It's dark in a lot of ways and you need to carefully read between the lines. Until now, I'm still at a loss whether everything was pure coincidental or was geniously planned to find Willy Wonka's rightful heir.
Lastly, I vehemently disagree with the idea that Johnny Depp patterned his Willy Wonka to Michael Jackson. Duh!?! Just because of their skin color? WHATEVER....
Monday, August 15, 2005
sigh
i didn't see it coming
that's why it hurts more
guess i was too trusting
you stabbed me to the core
i believed i found a friend
but it was a mistake all along
i was merely a mean for your end
it's too late to realize i was wrong
i've been banging my head on the wall
you took me for a ride
then you left me holding the ball
with all the jeers, insults and chides
i'm not expecting an apology
i can only sigh now when i think of you
i doubt if forgiveness will come easy
although everybody will definitely pay his due
that's why it hurts more
guess i was too trusting
you stabbed me to the core
i believed i found a friend
but it was a mistake all along
i was merely a mean for your end
it's too late to realize i was wrong
i've been banging my head on the wall
you took me for a ride
then you left me holding the ball
with all the jeers, insults and chides
i'm not expecting an apology
i can only sigh now when i think of you
i doubt if forgiveness will come easy
although everybody will definitely pay his due
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