i am not PEFECT

 Yeah, contrary to what people perceived, I never professed, proclaimed or sold myself as perfect.  I am, in fact, the most imperfect person I know.  I don't look beautiful. I am not super smart.  I can't sing nor dance nor do anything artistic.  But, damn, I am lucky because I have my family and friends who like me (probably, love me also) for who and what I am.

I used to get hurt, (still do, in fact) but I am learning (slowly...) to ignore.  I can't make them like me so why should I waste my time.  I should use my time appreciating the people who like me.  

Thank you, God, for surrounding me with people who readily accept me for what and who I am.

Thank you and Happy Birthday!

Quarantined Thoughts #011

I smile while I bleed
I laugh while I cry
I cheer while I sigh
I dream while I fear

Quarantined Thoughts #010

This should be ending on midnight of Easter Sunday but it is extended until the end of the month.  Why?  People just don't get why they should stay at home.  People just don't understand that they could be virus carriers.  People just don't understand that the virus need something/someone alive to move.  People just don't understand. 

Quarantined Thougts #009

Others first or Me first?

at this time of covid-19 virus, will i still think of others first or me first?

Quarantined Thoughts #008

Note to self: Snap out of it.  Keep in mind that nobody cares. Nobody listens. Nobody is concerned with your thoughts, opinions and beliefs.  They are just going through the motion of nodding and smiling but, in reality, they simply don't care.  You don't have to feel sad at all.  You just keep being yourself.  At least, you are true to yourself.

Quarantined Thoughts #007

Yes, I am a subordinate.  I obliged to follow orders.  But, don't i deserve empathy as well?  It's not easy to work with selfish superiors.  It's hard not to feel frustrated when you have to cater to their every whim.  Dang!

Quarantined Thoughts #006

A start of a new day.... A start of a new week.... A start of a new life? #quarantinedthoughts #randomthoughts #muddledthoughts #muffledthoughts

Quarantined Thoughts #005

Yeah, looks like her.... 👍

Quarantined Thoughts #004

I started this blog in 2004?!? Yay, how time flies.... so fast....  Will I want to turn back the time?  Goodness, I have no idea.  I do like some and I don't like some.  But, to relieve all of those again?  Hard to tell.... Maybe..... maybe not.....

Quarantined thoughts #003

postcard pretty isn't it? how i wish i can go back..... nothing can calm your muddled thoughts when nature shows you just how simply perfect it is.... inhale..... exhale..... yes, i will get through this.... yes, i can get through this..... #quarantinedthoughts #randomthoughts #muddledthoughts

Quarantined Thoughts #002

Most of my life, I kept hearing people say, "Life is Unfair."  It kept me thinking all my life how it could be unfair.  We were thought in school that men are created equal so how could it be unfair.  God loves all of us, so, again, how could it be unfair.

But, yeah, if you really think about it and lived it, life is indeed unfair.  There are those people who have more than others even though the latter worked most of their lives and the former did nothing except enjoy what was handed to them.  

Bitter me much?  Maybe.... life kindah sucks when you have to be perpetually adjusting to other people's mood and nobody gives a damn about your feelings.  Am I being too full of myself? Maybe.... 

There are a lot of times I have no idea anymore what to do or how to react.  I am always teethering between damn if you or damn if you don't.  If I was too kind, I got used.  If I acted the opposite, they say I abused.  Dang, what am I supposed to do?  What am I supposed to do?  

Quarantined Thoughts #001

March 22, 2020

The first week of the month long community quarantine turned enhanced community quarantine has just ended. My life, as I know it for 50 years, has changed in such a way that I have yet to grasp the reality of it. Yes, my day still starts with a cup of coffee and go to work, but now I have to be driven to work and back with a face mask on the entire time I am out of the house. I have to carefully coordinate my chores because of the 5am to 8pm curfew. I have to sanitize everything as soon as I enter the house.  I have to be ever conscious of the people around me because of social distancing. Don't get me wrong, I am not against the precautionary measures imposed because I know those are necessary for us to win over covid-19.

It seems I have taken for granted that I can always drop by the mall whenever I felt the need. It appears I have taken for granted all those Sunday mornings I spent sipping coffees and munching on chocolate glazed donuts. Yes, I have taken for granted my life.