~ finish reading A Tale of Two Cities (after, would you believe, 14 years?!? I never went past the line "....these are the best of times, these are the worst of times..."
~ dye my hair (scary thought! hehehehehe)
~ watch the Lord of the Rings trilogy (so I can join the rest of the world? hehehehe)
~ remember to always keep my mouth shut (HARDY-HAR-HAR!)
~ go to a spa (can I go now? please...... )
~ post more of my muddled and not-so-muddled thoughts (Oh no! I'm not that super-duper-uber stressed out! hahahaha)
~ write the ending of my fanfic (so I can live peacefully ever after! hahahaha)
~ always be thankful and be aware of my blessings (unfortunately, most of them I don't deserve...... )
~ stop focusing on negative thoughts (so I can do my visualization exercises effectively? hmmmmm..... )
~ clean my room (UGH!)
~ let go (Life is Short)
~ Time to try the South Bitch, I mean Beach, diet (HAHAHAHAHA)
Friday, December 31, 2004
misunderstood
it's raining hard again,
why am i not surprised?
it must be the presence of the clouds
that means darkness.
blackness that covered the sun,
the hope i desperately hanged on to,
but i slipped
and fell towards nowhere.
like the thoughts in my mind
whirling and running to no direction,
i could be talking of something
but meant differently
i want to apologize
for causing confusion
but i appreciate
if anyone understood
why am i not surprised?
it must be the presence of the clouds
that means darkness.
blackness that covered the sun,
the hope i desperately hanged on to,
but i slipped
and fell towards nowhere.
like the thoughts in my mind
whirling and running to no direction,
i could be talking of something
but meant differently
i want to apologize
for causing confusion
but i appreciate
if anyone understood
muddled thoughts #02
I'm quite amazed
I must confess
Times such as these don't come everyday
Words keep on coming
I can't seem to stop
It appears I need more than a pair of hands
Ideas shaped
Thoughts formed
Words spelled
Maybe I make sense
or may sound inane
but will somebody try to listen?
Maybe....
I must confess
Times such as these don't come everyday
Words keep on coming
I can't seem to stop
It appears I need more than a pair of hands
Ideas shaped
Thoughts formed
Words spelled
Maybe I make sense
or may sound inane
but will somebody try to listen?
Maybe....
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
thank you #03
*****to continue
ambot ~ whatever happens, kapatid, we're always be butiking bambang and maputlang siopao :-)
******to be continued
ambot ~ whatever happens, kapatid, we're always be butiking bambang and maputlang siopao :-)
******to be continued
questions
hope is eternal
wishes come true
but why can't i sleep at night
life is beautiful
love is blind
so why can't i smile
patience is virtue
you are a blessing
tell me what comes next
the sun rises
the moon sets
then what comes after the tears
will somebody
can somebody
make me see the sun after the rain
wishes come true
but why can't i sleep at night
life is beautiful
love is blind
so why can't i smile
patience is virtue
you are a blessing
tell me what comes next
the sun rises
the moon sets
then what comes after the tears
will somebody
can somebody
make me see the sun after the rain
Sunday, December 26, 2004
not-so-muddled thoughts #01
In the pilot episode of the TV series, Buffy, the Vampire Slayer, entitled, The Harvest, Buffy Summers told, her would-be bestfriend, Willow Rosenberg, "Seize the moment. 'Cause tomorrow you might be dead."
A bit morbid for some people but, for me, it made a lot of sense. I don't want to waste my time (anymore!) thinking of the WHYs, HOWs, WHATs, WHOs, IFs, BUTs, ANDs, etc. Life is too SHORT.
A bit morbid for some people but, for me, it made a lot of sense. I don't want to waste my time (anymore!) thinking of the WHYs, HOWs, WHATs, WHOs, IFs, BUTs, ANDs, etc. Life is too SHORT.
Friday, December 24, 2004
thank you #02
Merry Christmas!
*****to continue....
mari ~ here's a song (it was sung by pops fernandez and joey albert and, i think, was written by louie ocampo) that always reminds me of my partner in "crime" (hehehehe):
Points of View
Look, it's happened once again
It happens ev'ry now and then
Feeling the hurt and hatin' all the men
Ready to stop it all
That's when I need a friendly face
To see me through these lonely days
Just to put some sunshine in my place
Don't take too long, I need you
Here I am
I haven't gone that far away,
And since I am
The kind of friend you know
Would stay with you through all the pain
Never to leave you in the rain
Ready to listen to what you've been through
Your woes and blues and share each other's...
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.
See, the world seems bright again
It only darkens now and then
Most of the time there's just no telling when
Look up and see you've got me.
Here we are
We may have gone our diff'rent ways
But since we are
The kind of friends who'll always stay
No matter what the pain,
Learnin' to love that cap o' rain
Ready to say we're here to stay in ev'ry way
Although we've got our diff'rent
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And never really change our
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.
~ thank you :-)
*****to be continued
*****to continue....
mari ~ here's a song (it was sung by pops fernandez and joey albert and, i think, was written by louie ocampo) that always reminds me of my partner in "crime" (hehehehe):
Points of View
Look, it's happened once again
It happens ev'ry now and then
Feeling the hurt and hatin' all the men
Ready to stop it all
That's when I need a friendly face
To see me through these lonely days
Just to put some sunshine in my place
Don't take too long, I need you
Here I am
I haven't gone that far away,
And since I am
The kind of friend you know
Would stay with you through all the pain
Never to leave you in the rain
Ready to listen to what you've been through
Your woes and blues and share each other's...
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.
See, the world seems bright again
It only darkens now and then
Most of the time there's just no telling when
Look up and see you've got me.
Here we are
We may have gone our diff'rent ways
But since we are
The kind of friends who'll always stay
No matter what the pain,
Learnin' to love that cap o' rain
Ready to say we're here to stay in ev'ry way
Although we've got our diff'rent
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And never really change our
Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.
~ thank you :-)
*****to be continued
Thursday, December 23, 2004
thank you #01
2004 for me is a year of discoveries... with a lot of "who could've imagined that" and "how could've they done that".... Although most of the wounds caused by lies and deceits are still fresh, I will be forever grateful that I was given the chance to recognize a lot of truths along the way.
One of these joyful discoveries is the knowledge that I DO HAVE friends! People reading (ano ulet yun? hahahahaha) this will probably go, "what are you talking about?" Funny, but I've always been asked time and again how did I become friends with A? B? C? No offense meant to anyone because I honestly don't have an idea, too. I'm not sociable. I'm not comfortable mingling with people, especially those I don't know. I'd rather stay in the darkest and farthest corner of the room while looking contentedly at everyone. Still there are people who took the risk (hehehehe) of knowing me and hopefully I didn't, don't, and won't disappoint (too much!)....
Oyen ~ You are my first friend in high school and it really warms my heart to know that no amount of time and space apart can loosen the ties of friendship that have bound us together through the years.
Jo ~ I'm really glad we're given the chance to renew our friendship. Thank you very much for introducing me to the wonderful of blogging and sharing your computer tips (naks naman! techie na ako! hahahaha). Mag-bakasyon na kasi rito para mabuo na ang tatlong itlog! HAHAHAHAHAHA
*****to be continued
One of these joyful discoveries is the knowledge that I DO HAVE friends! People reading (ano ulet yun? hahahahaha) this will probably go, "what are you talking about?" Funny, but I've always been asked time and again how did I become friends with A? B? C? No offense meant to anyone because I honestly don't have an idea, too. I'm not sociable. I'm not comfortable mingling with people, especially those I don't know. I'd rather stay in the darkest and farthest corner of the room while looking contentedly at everyone. Still there are people who took the risk (hehehehe) of knowing me and hopefully I didn't, don't, and won't disappoint (too much!)....
Oyen ~ You are my first friend in high school and it really warms my heart to know that no amount of time and space apart can loosen the ties of friendship that have bound us together through the years.
Jo ~ I'm really glad we're given the chance to renew our friendship. Thank you very much for introducing me to the wonderful of blogging and sharing your computer tips (naks naman! techie na ako! hahahaha). Mag-bakasyon na kasi rito para mabuo na ang tatlong itlog! HAHAHAHAHAHA
*****to be continued
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
hope
rains began to pour
when i thought the sun would show
guess, everything has to change,
happening on its time
but i desperately want my life to be
what i dream of every night
nobody knows about my secret
until i let it come to light
now i sit here thinking
what might have been that had slipped
nothing i do can ever replace
the buds i had so callously nipped
yet i still hope and wish
one day, please let that day be
i would be that person
life has planned of me
when i thought the sun would show
guess, everything has to change,
happening on its time
but i desperately want my life to be
what i dream of every night
nobody knows about my secret
until i let it come to light
now i sit here thinking
what might have been that had slipped
nothing i do can ever replace
the buds i had so callously nipped
yet i still hope and wish
one day, please let that day be
i would be that person
life has planned of me
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
wish
There are things I want so much to forget...
but why is it so hard to do?
Maybe a couple of which I also regret,
especially those concerning you.
How I want to start over...
I hope everyhting will be right.
Will my life ever be better?
This time, possibly, it might...
I want to say goodbye
to all the sorrows, hurt and pain...
I want to stop asking why
and to start knowing ME again...
Thank you, Lord, for showing me the way...
Everything will be just fine, starting today.
but why is it so hard to do?
Maybe a couple of which I also regret,
especially those concerning you.
How I want to start over...
I hope everyhting will be right.
Will my life ever be better?
This time, possibly, it might...
I want to say goodbye
to all the sorrows, hurt and pain...
I want to stop asking why
and to start knowing ME again...
Thank you, Lord, for showing me the way...
Everything will be just fine, starting today.
Monday, December 20, 2004
it's nothing personal
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you speak
your voice grates my every nerve
like a mouse learning to squeak
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you move
it's like forcing myself to watch
how music loses it's groove
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you think
if i have to listen one more time
i have to visit a shrink
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you look
you act as if you're God's gift to women
but i know the amount of guts it took
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like you
you're the stuff nightmares are made of
please don't make them come true
i just don't like the way you speak
your voice grates my every nerve
like a mouse learning to squeak
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you move
it's like forcing myself to watch
how music loses it's groove
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you think
if i have to listen one more time
i have to visit a shrink
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like the way you look
you act as if you're God's gift to women
but i know the amount of guts it took
it's really nothing personal
i just don't like you
you're the stuff nightmares are made of
please don't make them come true
muddled thoughts #01
In the movie, Blade Trinity, there's a scene where a girl asked Wesley Snipes, "Why aren't you nice?" He replied, "Because the world isn't."
In the second Harry Potter Book, The Chamber of Secrets, Professor Dumbledore told Harry, "It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
So, should we believe that people aren't nice because they chose not be nice or is it because the world dictates them not to be nice?
In the second Harry Potter Book, The Chamber of Secrets, Professor Dumbledore told Harry, "It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
So, should we believe that people aren't nice because they chose not be nice or is it because the world dictates them not to be nice?
let me write a song
let me write a song
let me sing about life
what makes it beautiful
what makes it worthwhile
let me write a song
let me sing about love
what makes it special
what makes it alive
let me write a song
let me sing about you
what makes me smile
and drives away the blues
let me sing about life
what makes it beautiful
what makes it worthwhile
let me write a song
let me sing about love
what makes it special
what makes it alive
let me write a song
let me sing about you
what makes me smile
and drives away the blues
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Infernal Affairs
When I first saw the poster of Infernal Affairs prominently displayed at a HK cinema house a couple of years ago, i dismissed it immediately as another one of those B-action flicks that would have you rolling your eyes in utter exasperation in its first 15 minutes. But, a friend was insistent (so insistent that I was already having a hard time stifling the urge of hitting him with the DVD! hehehehehehe) that I watch this Andy Lau and Tony Leung movie. I eventually gave in, thinking that at the very least, I'll have a legitimate reason to swoon over Tony!
Contrary to my earlier perception, I didn't roll my eyes after the first 15 minutes. Instead, my eyes (and you can imagine how unbelievable that could possibly be! hahahahaha) were glued to the screen so much that I had to stop and rewind every now and then lest I missed something when I had to blink.
Infernal Affairs is basically a cat and mouse movie. Andy belongs to a triad who was encouraged to join the police force and Tony dreams of becoming a good policeman who had to infiltrate the triad. What makes this film deliciously intriguing is the ingenious way the directors presented the mind games between the two sides with the ultimate goal is to catch and kill the mole.
Having been a fan of Tony and Andy since they were doing HK TV dramas before (they were so good together in the Duke of Mount Deer as I recall), it was such a joy to watch them now.
I would be ecstatically happy to go on and on about Infernal Affairs, but I believe you will appreciate the movie more when you watch it on your own and be totally blown away.
By the way, the DVD offers 2 endings. Personally, I prefer the theatrical ending than the alternate one. It may run against the belief that crime does pay but what punishement can be more hellish than to carry your guilt heavily in your conscience for the rest of your life.
Contrary to my earlier perception, I didn't roll my eyes after the first 15 minutes. Instead, my eyes (and you can imagine how unbelievable that could possibly be! hahahahaha) were glued to the screen so much that I had to stop and rewind every now and then lest I missed something when I had to blink.
Infernal Affairs is basically a cat and mouse movie. Andy belongs to a triad who was encouraged to join the police force and Tony dreams of becoming a good policeman who had to infiltrate the triad. What makes this film deliciously intriguing is the ingenious way the directors presented the mind games between the two sides with the ultimate goal is to catch and kill the mole.
Having been a fan of Tony and Andy since they were doing HK TV dramas before (they were so good together in the Duke of Mount Deer as I recall), it was such a joy to watch them now.
I would be ecstatically happy to go on and on about Infernal Affairs, but I believe you will appreciate the movie more when you watch it on your own and be totally blown away.
By the way, the DVD offers 2 endings. Personally, I prefer the theatrical ending than the alternate one. It may run against the belief that crime does pay but what punishement can be more hellish than to carry your guilt heavily in your conscience for the rest of your life.
a special thing happened to me today
a special thing happened to me today
you looked at me and smiled at my way
a special thing happened to me today
you called my name and asked how was my day
a special thing happened to me today
we talked and shared a joke along the way
a special thing happened to me today
i began to live more than just day by day
you looked at me and smiled at my way
a special thing happened to me today
you called my name and asked how was my day
a special thing happened to me today
we talked and shared a joke along the way
a special thing happened to me today
i began to live more than just day by day
Saturday, December 18, 2004
waiting...
i'm waiting for something
but i don't know what
i know i'm missing something
but i'm not sure what i lack
days could be brighter
i fervently hope it would be
nights could be warmer
oh dear God, please let it be
what is it i'm praying for?
can somebody please enlighten me...
i seem to be in a limbo
alone, confused and lonely
but i don't know what
i know i'm missing something
but i'm not sure what i lack
days could be brighter
i fervently hope it would be
nights could be warmer
oh dear God, please let it be
what is it i'm praying for?
can somebody please enlighten me...
i seem to be in a limbo
alone, confused and lonely
hello!
for those who have read the shopaholic books, you know who SUZE is. a bit eccentric but a fiercely loyal friend, she is the one person you can count on. i honestly hope that i can be like her to my small circle of friends.
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