clarification

contrary to an assumption (hopefully, it wasn't circulated), my post, dated dec. 20, 2004 and entitled "it's nothing personal" was not about anybody I know since high school. i do understand, however, why it was construed as such but i don't want to be misunderstood again (oh yes!).

muffled thoughts #15

When I was a lot younger (hehehe), adults would often tell me, "wait until you get to the real world."

Okay, I guess I’m here now…. So, this is the real world. Come to think of it, there’s not much difference between this real world and my world. Well, except for the fact the people in my world act mainly on their impulses and, in this real world, every action has an ulterior motive.

It’s been ages (I have stopped counting when I reached my 5th year! Hahahaha) since I joined the real world but I still haven’t adapted to it’s dog-eat-dog environment. I guess, I’m too much of a dreamer. I’m still a believer of happy endings (oh yes, at my age! Hahahaha) so I couldn’t find the guts to intentionally inflict harm, emotionally or physically, on other people.

Hopefully, the day will come when people would just stop thinking only of themselves and start loving others as they love themselves. Oh yeah, I forgot! I live in the real world….

muffled thoughts #14

I heard somewhere that "life is like a soap opera" and i found myself nodding my head vigorously.... as corny as it may sound, my life (well, it could be.... pagpilitan ko ba talaga? hahahaha) can be one especially with all the sub-plots that have been cropping up from nowhere. ;)

I guess, for some people, they would say that i'm exaggerating. i mean, what earth-shatterring problems would i be facing? well, on the contrary, for those people who know me, they would understand.

FRUSTRATING MUCH!

Yesterday, I went out and did a bit of shopping expedition for work clothes. Weeellllll, there are only two words to describe the experience that could be otherwise fun.... FRUSTRATING MUCH!!!!!!! How come? Have all men shrank or something? Why is it the only size available is SMALL?!? Hello?!?

Ok, maybe its a wake-up call for me to go on a diet and that's also another FRUSTRATING MUCH! hehehehe

muffled thoughts #13

I know that death is an eventuality that everyone, including me, will have to deal with but when it happens suddenly, it is still unsettling. I guess, it would take a very long time, and most probably never, for me to easily accept it (and i think it also goes to everybody, too).

Updated List of My Comfort Food #1

~ Plain M&M's

~ Hershey's Mallow Blast Orange Flavor

~ Sprite Ice

~ Better that Ice Cream's Pistachio Flavor

~ ChocNut

~ Jollibee Coffee Jelly Iced Craze

~ Tasty Porkchop Rice

~ Goldilock's Double Dutch Slice

~ Hizon's Mocha Birthday Cake

My To-Do List for 2006

~ finish reading A Tale of Two Cities (after, would you believe, 15 years I never went past the line "....these are the best of times, these are the worst of times..."?!? Will I ever?!?)

~ dye my hair (if I could only overcome my fear of change and other things! hehehehe)

~ watch and read the Lord of the Rings trilogy (so I could actually understand what the big fuss is all about!)

~ remember to always keep my mouth shut (WHATEVER! hehehehe)

~ go to a spa (can I go everyday? please...... )

~ post more of my muddled and not-so-muddled thoughts (the question there should be is, can i stay awake and conscious past 5pm? hahahaha)

~ write the ending of my fanfic (i really wonder if that's possible at all! hahahaha)

~ always be thankful and be aware of my blessings (unfortunately, most of them I don't deserve......AMEN to that!)

~ stop focusing on negative thoughts (believe it or not, i actually believe i'm getting there! ;))

~ clean my room (there are times that we must accept what will never be! hahahaha)

~ let go and move on(unfortunately, both parties should agree...)

to Espie

For years, and more so now, people have been carrying a not-so-good impression of you. It is as if you had a hand on every hurtful and malicious comment uttered or whispered or, yes even, wrote about. Fine, you're not an angel but the rest of world aren't exactly saints. I guess, it's easier to point an accusing finger than handle the truth as you see it.

Maybe you need to smile more or maybe you need not express your opinions about a person directly to his/her face or maybe people can just stop judging you without trying to know you first...

Happy Birthday! My wish for you this year is for you to enjoy one PERFECT DAY. It may not happen on Jan. 21 but you will know when it does. Life is what we make it to be and you're one person who's not afraid to face reality no matter how hard it bites.