Independence Day

Carrie Underwood - Independence Day Lyrics

Well she seemed all right by dawn's early light
Though she looked a little worried and weak
She tried to pretend he wasn't drinkin' aagain
But daddy left the proof on her cheek
and I was only eight years old that summer
And I always seemed to be in the way
So I took myself down to the fair in town
On Independence Day

Well word gets a round in a small, small town
They said he was a dangerous man
but Mama was proud and she stood her ground
she knew she was on the losin' end
Some folks whispered some folks talked
but everybody looked the other way
And when time ran out there was no one about
on Independence Day

(Chorus)
let freedom ring, let the white dove sing
let the whole world know that
Today is a day of reckoning
let the weak be strong, let the right be wrong
roll The stone away, let the guilty pay,
it’s independence day

Well she lit up the sky that fourth of July
By the time the firemen come
They just put out the flames and took down some names
And send me to the county home
Now I aint sayin' it's right or it's wrong
but maybe it's the only way
Talk about your revolution
It's Indepenedence Day

(Chorus)
let freedom ring, let the white dove sing
let the whole world know that
Today is a day of reckoning
let the weak be strong, let the right be wrong
roll The stone away, let the guilty pay,
it’s independence day

Roll the stone away It's Independence Day


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The first time I heard Carrie Underwood singing this song was during the 90's hits week in the fourth season of the American Idol. I immediately fell in love with it's melody but, unfortunately, I had no inkling as to what the song was all about. I was so in awe of Carrie's performance that I actually didn't bother to understand the lyrics.

Now that I was able to listen to the song in its entirety and had read its lyrics, I am, again, in awe. Like Simon Cowell, I have no idea what country music is. But "Independence Day" opened my eyes and ears. Wow! It's pure and simple and it comes from the heart. The music is sassy and catchy, and, the straight-to-the-point words tug the very heartstrings that hold the fragile ties of our emotions together.

This is a serious song about domestic violence and the tragic choice to end it. It can also effectively sing the desperate need to be independent against any kinds of oppression. Wouldn't life be ideal if we could let the weak be strong and let the guilty pay? There should be justice and its corresponding retribution before forgiveness can be bestowed. We'll, then, be able to truly celebrate our independence day.

muffled thoughts #09

What would you change in your life if you'll be granted the opportunity to live it all over again?

At the risk of being accused of dwelling in the could've beens and might've beens, I welcome the idea of change. I had done a lot of things in my youth that I now wholeheartedly regret.

~ I should've majored in Literature instead of Asian Studies. Although I did enjoy learning all those things Japanese, I can't help but wonder what would've happend if I had pursued one of my dreams. Would I feel the satisfaction that I continually crave for? Would I be able to outgrow the insecurity that I can't ignore?

~ I should've been nicer. If by any miraculous circumstance, YOU're able to read this, I sincerely apologize for being a BITCH. Looking back, I've realized that it could've been a start of a beautiful freindship but I messed it up. Hopefully, one day, we'll see each other and I can finally say "Sorry" that is already 24 (and counting....) years too late.

~ I should've not acted such a brat when maturity in decision-making was badly needed. Because of my stubbornness, I lost so much that it would take this lifetime, and then some, to make up for it.

~ I should've thought of the future instead of focusing on the present. No one can't stop the passage of time and all of us will be facing the inevitability. Instead of selfishly enjoying the present, I should've started planning for the future.

muddled thoughts #07

What would you do if you heard not-so-good things about your friend? Would you immediately inform your friend about them or would you just keep your peace?

It is never easy to tell anybody, especially to a friend, that there are gossips, more so when its downright malicious, about him/her going around. Personally, I strive to keep my nose out of other people's business, but for some strange reasons, their stories always find their way to my attention and, in turn, I always find myself in a dilemma. Shoud I or should I not?

Let's say you've decided to tell your friend, would you relate them word for word? And when would you tell your friend? Is there ever a right time?

And if you opted to ignore the rumors, what can be the possible consequences of your choice?

I guess the real question here is: would it be better to be ignorant of what's hurtful or would it be better to be aware of what's going on?

Happy Father's Day

For some inexplicable pyschological thingy, although others may claim it more as an incurable trauma, parents see their children as forever 3-year olds who are struggling to utter their first words and take those tentative wobbly steps. Be it unconditional love or plain distrust, parents often find letting go of their children the hardest thing to do. Somehow, the memories of their children stumbling along life's rough road scare the heck out of them. On the other hand, it can be downright irritating to those offsprings who want to assert their independence.

I am not a parent so I honestly have no idea why parents are the way they are. And, yes, I also get terribly annoyed when my decisions are questioned. It definitely does not help in proving your maturity when your parents scold you for choosing brewed coffee instead of full cream milk.

But I have a confession to make though. No matter how strong is the need to prove my worth as an individual, I still would gladly remain a clinging 3-year old to my father. Yes, I am a daddy's girl and mighty proud of it.

As far back as I can recall, I have always been closer to my father. In a way, we're not just parent and child. We're good friends. I can talk to him about anything and everything, even the latest entertainment gossip. He's the one person in this world who doesn't judge my mistakes, instead help me understand what went wrong. He would wholeheartedly take away all my burdens and carry them all by himself.

My only regret is that I still can't offer to him the life's luxuries he so richly deserves. I want him to enjoy instead of helping me fight my battles.

Happy Father's Day, Pa! We may not be an affectionate family but we know in our hearts the immeasurable depths of the love and respect we have for each other. One day, Pa, we'll visit your birthplace together and you can regale all your childhood adventures to me again while feasting on boiled yams and steaming black oolong tea.

Last Song Syndrome #02

Inside Your Heaven
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I’ve been down
Now I’m blessed
I felt a revelation comin’ around
I guess it’s right
It’s so amazing
Everytime I see you, I’m alive
You’re all I’ve got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you’re breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains form I’ll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you’re breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

muddled thoughts #06

Whether it was intentional or otherwise, we were fed with generous helpings of the notion that someday our Mr. Right will come along and we will live happily ever after. It's the most romantic thought, and there's absolutely no doubt about it, but is it true? I mean, is there, for a fact, a real Mr. Right out there for every female person in this world? For that matter, how would we know Mr. Right from all the men we've met then, have met and will meet? And, most especially, what makes a man Mr. Right?

At the risk of sounding like a griping old maid (Ha! Ha! Ha!), is every person pre-destined to meet his/her match? Or is it possible that there are some percentage of humanity fated to enjoy singlehood instead?

muddled thoughts #05

if given the chance, would you choose the man who you love with all your heart or would you choose the man who simply loves you more?

silver lining

i can see the sun shyly peeking
as the angels separate the clouds.
is this the fabled silver lining?
can i now sing my wishes aloud?

i'm now starting to see all things bright
and turn towards the positive side of life.
maybe now i can make the wrongs right
and finally surrender the emotional knife.

the rains have stopped pouring
and so are the tears in my heart.
i know this is my new beginning
even though i have been torn apart.

i am praying for a chance
to live my life anew.
possibly, i can even do a little dance
to celebrate my dreams coming true.

Updates on My To-Do List for 2005

The first half of the 2005 is almost over, let's see how did I do so far....

1. finish reading A Tale of Two Cities (after, would you believe, 14 years?!? I never went past the line "....these are the best of times, these are the worst of times..."
~ How can I possibly finish this book when I can't find my copy? I really hope one of these days (in the very near future!) I can actually look for it, find it, read it and finish it.

2. dye my hair (scary thought! hehehehehe)
~ I did try the henna treatment and that's the most adventurous thing I can afford to be when it comes to my hair. Like I keep on saying, I'm really scared of change and as trivial as it may sound, I'm actually afraid. Guess, I'll just have to give up on the blue streak thingy.

3. watch the Lord of the Rings trilogy (so I can join the rest of the world? hehehehe)
~Oh boy! Another must-do that I haven't started doing anything at all. My brother even got me the book to kindah whet my interest but, unfortunately, to no avail. I just couldn't muster the enthusiasm to join Frodo's perilous journey.

4. remember to always keep my mouth shut (HARDY-HAR-HAR!)
~ Oh Lord!(oops! My bad! It just kindah got out, ok?) This is hard, keeping my mouth shut, especially when I'm with my friends. But, I AM TRYING....

5. go to a spa (can I go now? please...... )
~ Top on my wish list!!!!!

6. post more of my muddled and not-so-muddled thoughts (Oh no! I'm not that super-duper-uber stressed out! hahahaha)
~ This I would be more than willing to do. There are times though I run out of words, or, worse, my thoughts run out on me! hahahahahaha

7. write the ending of my fanfic (so I can live peacefully ever after! hahahaha)
~ Oh Yeah! I added two chapters!!!!! Now, if only I can get to the ending.... hmmm.....

8. always be thankful and be aware of my blessings (unfortunately, most of them I don't deserve...... )
~ I'll never get tired of saying "Thank You"! Wait, I haven't finished my list....

9. stop focusing on negative thoughts (so I can do my visualization exercises effectively? hmmmmm..... )
~ Negative thoughts and me.... hmmmm.... we kindah go well together.... he he he

10. clean my room (UGH!)
~ What's the difference between my room then and now? Is there? HA HA HA HA

11. let go (Life is Short)
~ Amen to that!

12. Time to try the South Bitch, I mean Beach, diet (HAHAHAHAHA)
~ South Beath What?!? HA HA HA

muffled thoughts #08

Are you familiar with this song sang by the Bangles?

"It's six o'clock already
and I'm just in the middle of a dream.
I was kissing Valentino
in a crystal blue Italian stream.
But I can't be late
or I guess I won't get paid.
These are the days
when you wish your bed is already made.

It's just another manic monday
Wish it was sunday
'Coz that's my fun day
My I-don't-have-to-run day..."

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Oh yeah, mondays and me, we just don't go well together. There's something about this day that doesn't sit well with my disposition. Is it psychological? Maybe..... Childhood trauma? Not that I can recall any...YET... Fear? Whatever.....

Job Hunting

It's been more than a decade since I went through the usual rounds of written and oral examinations normally required for a job seeker to take. Amazingly, the process is still the same and I honestly believe even the test questions are the very ones I took way back then. I'm sure, somehow, there are changes but the only thing glaringly obvious to me is ME.

I can't actually put into words the emotions going through me as I see these fresh graduates excitedly comparing notes, what schools they're from, what companies they've applied to, etc. Maybe, I have turned cynical with time and, yes, experience, but hearing their innocent chatter makes me realize that, yes, I still have some semblance of idealistic dreams left. I don't know what will happen next or will I ever be given another chance to prove something to myself in spite of the age factor, but this experience instill a glimmer of hope within me.

Maybe I can turn things around..... soon....

it's not easy

it's not easy to say goodbye
when i'm feeling this way
it's hard not to cry
when i can't freely say

how can i live my life
without you by my side
is it possible to even try
without you as my guide

it's not easy to let you go
when you own my heart
it's hard not to show
when you've torn me apart

how can i go on living
now that i had lost my soul
will i see a silver lining
or will i continue to fall