OMG!!!!

I think I am slowly going out of my mind.....

I just don't get how some of the people around me think... If I react to something, I became an arrogant fool, BUT, if I keep my opinions to myself, I'm branded an unfeeling jerk... OMG!!! Where in the world should I turn to?!?

Is it really just ME?!? Did I really change that much? for the bad and worst?!?

But, then again, if they're really true to me, instead of giving me the cold shoulder (whenever they feel like it!), why don't they simply be honest to me?!? Don't I even deserve that much (or less)?!?

I'm so tired of trying to adapt, adjust and give in to their fickle whims and unreasonable tantrums. Don't get me wrong, I'm liable to transform myself but I try to follow something my parents taught me, if I'm about to say something negative, better keep it to myself because there is absolutely no way I can take back spoken words, whether it's unintentional or otherwise.

AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! If only it's morally acdeptable for me to scream BLOODY MURDER to these people!!!!!!

Leaving Yesterday Behind

During the 1980's, there was a song that really fits the current situation of a person who's close to me....

"So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before"

I'm sure it wasn't easy for him to finally make THE decision but I do really commend him for taking the first step. His life wasn't easy nor as rosy as what others would like to believe. Living alone in the other side of world from your family and betrayed by the one person he'd believed he would spend the rest of his life with weren't exactly what we would hope to find along the greener pastures.

Whatever plans he might still be forming for the future, I want to reassure him that there are a lot of people who truly care for him and would always stick by his side no matter what.