BOOM!!!!

I promised myself that I won't do it anymore. I promised myself I won't give in and allow my temper to get the better of me. I promised myself I'll be good. Then.... boom!!!!! You did it again!!!! For some reason (totally unknown to me), you just grate my nerves. I guess, this is one of those instances that we rub each the VERY wrong way. I have to admit, you're not exactly a bad person and, trust me, neither am I a good person but, we just don't like each other. We just tolerate each other but there are times that our mutual tolerance levels are at its lowest of low. I am getting tired of sparring with you mentally. I am getting tired of being on my best guard whenever you're around. I am getting tired of you PERIOD.

I'm not really how I come across to others, my image, I mean... I'm not sure if people see as a serious person. I'm not sure... But it you ask how I see myself, I don't have a clue. Maybe I'm still in the process of knowing myself. I'm still in the process of actually de-cluttering the 40 + years of mess... hehehehe Whenever I'm in a pensive mood and stare myself at the mirror, my reflection shows a person who tries so hard to please everybody that she ended up hurting herself more. I see a person who never thought highly of herself. I see a person who doesn't believe in her own abilities. Pathetic, am I not?

Back to One

Nope, this is not going to be an entry about mushy romance stuff.... This is about me ready to start anew... going back to one.... Okay.... lots of things to think about.... lots of things to plan.... lots of things are about to change....

ohohoho

Ohohohoho!!!! I was not exactly myself today and that was what made me go "ohohohoho!" Maybe I should've done this a long time ago.... Let people see the other side of me or should I say, the real me? ohohohohoho!