you uncomplete me

it's almost seven months already... i should be getting on and moving on... still, little things remind me oh so vividly that i will never be complete... i'm still lost... i'm still not ok...

will i ever be ok? can i ever be ok after losing my best friend? i don't think there's another one like him in this lifetime... he listens to me without prejudice although he's never selfish with his advices...

will i ever find myself again? i seriously doubt it... i forever lost my rock... he's the only person who can make me stop ranting, raving and basically can shut me up with a look...