faith

there are no words left to be said
to what happened between you and me...
there are no tears left to be shed....
i am through being lonely.
tomorrow have to be faced
with love in my heart.
anger and pain must be erased...
they only tear me apart.
the sun is shining again today...
it hasn't been for so long.
but i know now not to stray...
faith has made me quite strong.
you will always be a part of me and what we had...
come to think of it, it wasn't really all that bad...

A FRIEND

I can't seem to find the right way
to express what's in my heart.
My soul has nothing left to say
except the pain is tearing me apart.
I really thought it would last forever.
I prayed so hard it would be
but life is another matter.
Look what it did to you and me.
How could it have happened to us?
What made our dreams fade away?
Who allowed time to pass?
Why did change have to stay?
Can somebody tell me when will the hurting end?
God, how I badly need a friend

I AM ME

How can I possibly tell you how I feel
when I don't know anymore what is real?
Sure, the sun is still shining ever so bright.
But why do I feel nothing will ever be right?
I tried so very hard to understand
but then, this is all what I can.
I am not perfect and never professed to be.
So, why do you people keep on looking at me?
Give me a break! I need fresh air!
When will this pain be easier to bear?
Your burden is always heavier than my own.
Why can't I just stay at home?
I cannot live for somebody else's gain.
I am me. Please use my name.

muffled thoughts 30/01/05

According to the Horoscope by Francis Drake (Goodness! I forgot the exact date this was published in the broadsheet! Guess, I can't deny the age factor anymore! HAHAHAHAHAHA): "Romance might disappoint you in some way today. But the road to love is never smooth. In fact, the road to anything is never smooth."

~ How true!!!!!!!!! For some inexplicable reason, I can never seem to live my life the way I want. So, is it me or is it just me? ;)

new year

A new year has begun
I have to squint my eyes at the sun
The future seems so bright
hopefully, it will turn out right
There's so much for me to gain
now that I've learned to smile again

The rains had passed
I know our friendship would last
for better or worse, we never let go
Hands held together, it was not for show
I felt so blessed that you're all here
you've made my life easier to bear

time goes forward and life moves on
together, we all can right the wrongs

perfect day

is it too much to ask for a perfect day?

a day when everything goes my way?

wouldn't it be grand to have a day just like that?

nothing goes wrong no matter what...

DEPRESSION

blackness pervades my thoughts
numbness clouds my emotions
emptiness engulfs my days
as darkness consumes my soul

desperation creeps in uninvited
i was caught unaware
frustrations claws its way in
as ire starts to settle

helplessness is all i recognize
loneliness savors my fear
as change chases the rainbow away
and confusion dusts my dreams

Suggestion #02

from The Good Spell Book by Gillian Kemp:

~ Easy Money Spell

light a green candle.

let it burn for five minutes then blow it out.

rub your hands in the smoke and imagine money coming to you..