Day One

Ok, this is the first day of my "new" life.... interesting, really....

did i think only of happy thoughts today?  I believe so... although there were short lapses.. still, I believe I managed to cast them out before they rule me AGAIN!

did i decompose today?  uhmm... i think there was a moment when I was starting to decompose but I believe I managed to compose myself AGAIN!

did i cherish my true friends?  I believe so AGAIN!

coffee bonds

Funny how it is always easier to talk over a cup of coffee.... 

Thank You

I would just like to say thank you to two special persons in my work life right now.  You never fail to pick up the pieces of my heart (and brains!) whenever and wherever... ;) You're the BEST!!!!

Not for Sensitive Skin

Disclaimer: No, this is not in any way connected to anything dermatological in nature.

Take away the irritation, annoyance and frustration, I should be extremely grateful to my so-called "friends" who had intentionally (or, hopefully, unintentionally) misconstrued my every action and misinterpreted my every word. Their "concern" has helped me develop an immunity to anything and everything not nice thus curing me from that uncomfortable state of having sensitive skin.

Oh yes, I suffered so much, well, mostly, emotionally, with my sensitive skin before. I was so incredibly sensitive back then that I used to cry (oh yes, I did shed all those tears, believe me!) at the slightest provocation.

Fortunately for me, I had help with my "treatment." Real friends who never withdrew their support, family who never lessened their life and time who never forced me to face life head on until it's right for me to do so.

User-friendly

I can't remember exactly when we started to use the term "user-friendly". Initially, we used it in jest but, we've come to a realization that, indeed, there is a user-friendly in each of us.

For others, the term user-friendly maybe a big turn-off. Personally, I say that it depends on how you practice the concept. You can be a user-friendly person but in a nice way, meaning, you "use" other people's strengths to gain something but in return, you allow yourself to be used as well. Or you can be that user-friendly person that everybody wants to avoid, meaning you abuse other people's trust and talent for your personal gain. Everything, of course, is dependent on how you would execute the concept (hehehehe).

Here's an advice, when you practice the concept, please, don't make it too obvious. Don't act as it you're all good and kindness towards the person you're planning to use then deliberately ignore him/her after you're done with him/her. You might not get the chance to "use" that person again. What's worse? You'll probably lose your "usefulness" as well.

One Day at a Time

One thing I realized last Friday is that almost everybody around me has become health-conscious. They're into blood tests and consultations on all symptoms presently known to mankind and then some.

Personally, I'm doctor-phobic. Meaning? I'd rather not know any illness that I may be sufferring from instead of hearing all those eye-boggling medical terms that could trigger brain-crushing migraine. It's not good, right? I know. Somehow, I'm more at peace with that and, I guess, less stressful.

Yes, less stressful, because I believe that a lot of those medical problems stem from too much stress in our life. So, I'm opting to take life one day at a time. Instead of thinking so much of what will happen, I will sit back and smell the roses. Problems will come however we try to avoid it anyway. And, instead of thinking of how other people will look at my person, I will think of how I will live my life. No one would suffer nor enjoy the consequences of my actions but me so i see no reason why should I give so much importance to their opinion.

Life is too short to keep on thinking what others think of me. They don't live my life for me. I do.

Now, if only my friends will remind me about this entry the next time I hear bad things being said about me....

to Espie

For years, and more so now, people have been carrying a not-so-good impression of you. It is as if you had a hand on every hurtful and malicious comment uttered or whispered or, yes even, wrote about. Fine, you're not an angel but the rest of world aren't exactly saints. I guess, it's easier to point an accusing finger than handle the truth as you see it.

Maybe you need to smile more or maybe you need not express your opinions about a person directly to his/her face or maybe people can just stop judging you without trying to know you first...

Happy Birthday! My wish for you this year is for you to enjoy one PERFECT DAY. It may not happen on Jan. 21 but you will know when it does. Life is what we make it to be and you're one person who's not afraid to face reality no matter how hard it bites.

not-so-muddled thoughts #03

a friend sent me this message today:

"Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them but you they are always there."

~ I definitely won't get lost in the dark with "stars" to guide me, 'di ba? ;)

thank you #05

*****to continue

jean ~ we rarely disagree, well, except on a certain korean (HAHAHAHAHA), but, still, the friendship nurtured since college has become into one of my steady anchors against this mad, mad, mad world.

to be continued*****

new year

A new year has begun
I have to squint my eyes at the sun
The future seems so bright
hopefully, it will turn out right
There's so much for me to gain
now that I've learned to smile again

The rains had passed
I know our friendship would last
for better or worse, we never let go
Hands held together, it was not for show
I felt so blessed that you're all here
you've made my life easier to bear

time goes forward and life moves on
together, we all can right the wrongs

thank you #04

*****to continue

cyn ~ who would've believed that something absolutely cheesy was able to open our communication lines? :) i may not say this enough but i really appreciate your patience and understanding especially when i was not being myself (or should i say when i was being truly myself? hahahahahaha)...

to be continued*****

thank you #03

*****to continue

ambot ~ whatever happens, kapatid, we're always be butiking bambang and maputlang siopao :-)

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thank you #02

Merry Christmas!

*****to continue....

mari ~ here's a song (it was sung by pops fernandez and joey albert and, i think, was written by louie ocampo) that always reminds me of my partner in "crime" (hehehehe):


Points of View

Look, it's happened once again
It happens ev'ry now and then
Feeling the hurt and hatin' all the men
Ready to stop it all

That's when I need a friendly face
To see me through these lonely days
Just to put some sunshine in my place
Don't take too long, I need you

Here I am
I haven't gone that far away,
And since I am
The kind of friend you know
Would stay with you through all the pain
Never to leave you in the rain
Ready to listen to what you've been through
Your woes and blues and share each other's...

Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.

See, the world seems bright again
It only darkens now and then
Most of the time there's just no telling when
Look up and see you've got me.

Here we are
We may have gone our diff'rent ways
But since we are
The kind of friends who'll always stay
No matter what the pain,
Learnin' to love that cap o' rain
Ready to say we're here to stay in ev'ry way
Although we've got our diff'rent

Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And never really change our

Points of view
We've been there once before
And kept our points of view
It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same
We have our rules in diff'rent ways,
We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes
And keep our points of view.


~ thank you :-)


*****to be continued

thank you #01

2004 for me is a year of discoveries... with a lot of "who could've imagined that" and "how could've they done that".... Although most of the wounds caused by lies and deceits are still fresh, I will be forever grateful that I was given the chance to recognize a lot of truths along the way.

One of these joyful discoveries is the knowledge that I DO HAVE friends! People reading (ano ulet yun? hahahahaha) this will probably go, "what are you talking about?" Funny, but I've always been asked time and again how did I become friends with A? B? C? No offense meant to anyone because I honestly don't have an idea, too. I'm not sociable. I'm not comfortable mingling with people, especially those I don't know. I'd rather stay in the darkest and farthest corner of the room while looking contentedly at everyone. Still there are people who took the risk (hehehehe) of knowing me and hopefully I didn't, don't, and won't disappoint (too much!)....

Oyen ~ You are my first friend in high school and it really warms my heart to know that no amount of time and space apart can loosen the ties of friendship that have bound us together through the years.

Jo ~ I'm really glad we're given the chance to renew our friendship. Thank you very much for introducing me to the wonderful of blogging and sharing your computer tips (naks naman! techie na ako! hahahaha). Mag-bakasyon na kasi rito para mabuo na ang tatlong itlog! HAHAHAHAHAHA

*****to be continued