Quarantined Thoughts #004

I started this blog in 2004?!? Yay, how time flies.... so fast....  Will I want to turn back the time?  Goodness, I have no idea.  I do like some and I don't like some.  But, to relieve all of those again?  Hard to tell.... Maybe..... maybe not.....

Quarantined thoughts #003

postcard pretty isn't it? how i wish i can go back..... nothing can calm your muddled thoughts when nature shows you just how simply perfect it is.... inhale..... exhale..... yes, i will get through this.... yes, i can get through this..... #quarantinedthoughts #randomthoughts #muddledthoughts

Quarantined Thoughts #002

Most of my life, I kept hearing people say, "Life is Unfair."  It kept me thinking all my life how it could be unfair.  We were thought in school that men are created equal so how could it be unfair.  God loves all of us, so, again, how could it be unfair.

But, yeah, if you really think about it and lived it, life is indeed unfair.  There are those people who have more than others even though the latter worked most of their lives and the former did nothing except enjoy what was handed to them.  

Bitter me much?  Maybe.... life kindah sucks when you have to be perpetually adjusting to other people's mood and nobody gives a damn about your feelings.  Am I being too full of myself? Maybe.... 

There are a lot of times I have no idea anymore what to do or how to react.  I am always teethering between damn if you or damn if you don't.  If I was too kind, I got used.  If I acted the opposite, they say I abused.  Dang, what am I supposed to do?  What am I supposed to do?  

Quarantined Thoughts #001

March 22, 2020

The first week of the month long community quarantine turned enhanced community quarantine has just ended. My life, as I know it for 50 years, has changed in such a way that I have yet to grasp the reality of it. Yes, my day still starts with a cup of coffee and go to work, but now I have to be driven to work and back with a face mask on the entire time I am out of the house. I have to carefully coordinate my chores because of the 5am to 8pm curfew. I have to sanitize everything as soon as I enter the house.  I have to be ever conscious of the people around me because of social distancing. Don't get me wrong, I am not against the precautionary measures imposed because I know those are necessary for us to win over covid-19.

It seems I have taken for granted that I can always drop by the mall whenever I felt the need. It appears I have taken for granted all those Sunday mornings I spent sipping coffees and munching on chocolate glazed donuts. Yes, I have taken for granted my life.

Day Nineteen

I never learned.... Why do I never learned....

Day Eighteen

So far, so good......

Day Seventeen

IT'S UNFAIR! IT'S UNFAIR!!! 

Day Sixteen

Hmmmm....... What is there to say?  Peaceful and calm... Lull before the storm?  Don't want to think that way.... I'm thinking, maturity is finally settling in.. slowly.... This would be a veerrryyyy loooonnnngggg and sssssllllooooowwww process, but with God's grace, we will get there. I claim it!!!!